before i get started let me just say that this blog has completely & totally become my vent and i don't know how i ever functioned without one. i look forward to blogging, it lets me release emotions and feelings that i sometimes just didn't talk about.
and speaking of emotions..mine are off the chain tonight. (at least i can admit it, right?) after two nights of abby being up at all hours of the night, restless and fussy..working the next morning after both of those all-nighters and staying an extra two hours tonight (making it a 14 hour shift, god where was my mind when i agreed) and on top of being up and on the move since 3:30 this morning...i'm pretty sure it's safe to say i'm physically and emotionally drained..100%. work was beyond words crazy today..and my back is throbbing and my feet are achy and pounding..and i hardly even go to take a lunch break! yes, i'm whining. and i cried at work after i agreed to staying late, realizing that i'd miss bedtime with abby..and that i wasn't as loving and wonderful as i could of been last night when she wouldn't sleep..and i really thought she was going to think i left for good. i never miss bedtime. i cried again on the way home from work because jake didn't answer his phone. yes, you read that right. i was scared to walk the 5 blocks to my car alone (it's not usually dark when i leave, but since i stayed late it was) i was totally freaked out & it was right after i texted him asking him to please pick up because i was afraid to walk to my car alone at night. and he said okay. did he answer the 30 times i called? nope. i broke down into pathetic sobs when he finally answered and blew the whole thing off..how can you not even care how scared i was! all i wanted you to do was answer your phone, but you weren't even there for me! *waaaaaaaaaaah* ...maybe i overreacted. and i'm still sitting in the bedroom pouting while he's in the living room watching tv by himself...me slowly starting to realize how silly i'm being. i thought once i got home that i could go scoop abby up for some after bedtime snuggles to cheer me up..but she screamed and pushed me away until i let her lay back down. *sigh*
honestly though? right now i feel like whining. i feel like being pouty and sitting in the dark bedroom alone, with my cup of sunny d and being a....brat, maybe you could say? and i secretly wish jake would give into my bratiness & just pamper on me hand and foot...but we all know that's not going to happen.
do you see what sleep deprivation does to me? over the past two days i've probably slept 8-10 hours and i feel like i've lost my ever loving mind. i was annoyed with every person who looked at me wrong, loosing my pen 50 times today almost sent me into a hyperventilating rush of tears and i only have two short days off until i'm back busting my sleepy butt again on monday.
oh, and why the hell am i still awake blogging about all this mess instead of sleeping, which is what i very, very obviously need?!
because i have lost my ever.loving.mind
Friday, August 6, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
sometimes it's hard. but it's life.
*sigh* i miss my daughter so much when i'm working. it just kills me. it kills me to come home to see a happy girl crawling around on the floor playing chase with her daddy, i hate that i wasn't a part of their fun game...but glad that they love each other and play together so well all at the same time. i hate that all i want to do is squish her and love her and play with her for hours once i walk through the door, but the continuous eye rubbing and yawning makes me realize i'd just be a mean mommy to keep her up any longer. so i snuggle up some more lovins after i dress her in warm jammies & lay her down to sleep with a warm bottle & its bitter sweet when she rolls over and closes her eyes..loving that she's so comfy, but hating that i'm going to have to wake her back up way before her functioning hour, strap her in the carseat, and drop her off to my Grandma while i'm gone for another 12 hours. *sign again* some days are harder than others, and today..is one of those tougher days.
night time at our house is usually pretty routine. jake and i lay abby down together around 9, we hang out for a while just the two of us..he heads to bed around 10 or 11..and the night owl (that's me) usually stays up much later than she should and hits the sack sometime after midnight. tonight wasn't so routine. for some reason..my baby couldn't sleep. and a part of my heart aches because theres just a smidge of me that thinks she knew it was back to work for mama the next day, and she was sad..like i was. so when she woke up at 2am, and then 3am, and then 4am..i didn't do the routine let her cry or talk herself back to sleep (i never do anyways)..i scooped her up in the dimly lit room and the way her little head rested against my shoulder as soon as her body hit mine..just melted me. completely, melted me. my heart grew 100 sizes and i sat in her rocking chair with her and loved her up, humming you are my sunshine until she was deep back into dream land. and then, when she woke up again..i softly carried her back in bed with us. the first time i've done it since she was a month old, and oh my goodness..it was heaven. the whole 10 minutes it lasted, it was pure heaven. the sound of jake's heavy sleepy breathing, my little love in the crook of my arm..lightly breathing, and the streaks of light beaming in from the street light, i could see her little chest rasing & falling, her peaceful little closed eyes, her perfect little lips..and i cried. like a baby. because who couldn't cry? the two people i love most in this world right there in bed with me, pure bliss.
5 minutes later jake got up for a late night pee, and Abby shot up right behind him. but thats okay..because it's just how our life goes. sometimes its easy, sometimes its hard, sometimes we sleep..sometimes we spend the late hours awake..sometimes we cry, sometimes we smile..it all makes up this little thing we call life. thank you. thank you, thank you sweet little girl for teaching me what its all about.
night time at our house is usually pretty routine. jake and i lay abby down together around 9, we hang out for a while just the two of us..he heads to bed around 10 or 11..and the night owl (that's me) usually stays up much later than she should and hits the sack sometime after midnight. tonight wasn't so routine. for some reason..my baby couldn't sleep. and a part of my heart aches because theres just a smidge of me that thinks she knew it was back to work for mama the next day, and she was sad..like i was. so when she woke up at 2am, and then 3am, and then 4am..i didn't do the routine let her cry or talk herself back to sleep (i never do anyways)..i scooped her up in the dimly lit room and the way her little head rested against my shoulder as soon as her body hit mine..just melted me. completely, melted me. my heart grew 100 sizes and i sat in her rocking chair with her and loved her up, humming you are my sunshine until she was deep back into dream land. and then, when she woke up again..i softly carried her back in bed with us. the first time i've done it since she was a month old, and oh my goodness..it was heaven. the whole 10 minutes it lasted, it was pure heaven. the sound of jake's heavy sleepy breathing, my little love in the crook of my arm..lightly breathing, and the streaks of light beaming in from the street light, i could see her little chest rasing & falling, her peaceful little closed eyes, her perfect little lips..and i cried. like a baby. because who couldn't cry? the two people i love most in this world right there in bed with me, pure bliss.
5 minutes later jake got up for a late night pee, and Abby shot up right behind him. but thats okay..because it's just how our life goes. sometimes its easy, sometimes its hard, sometimes we sleep..sometimes we spend the late hours awake..sometimes we cry, sometimes we smile..it all makes up this little thing we call life. thank you. thank you, thank you sweet little girl for teaching me what its all about.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
oh, the little things
sometimes all you really in life are the little things to make you feel inspired, to make you get off your ass & do something with yourself, to make you feel refreshed & happy. i realized that today after i gave myself an early morning mommy pampering session the whole 2 hours that abby napped. it was all i needed, and it was spectacular. i relaxed in a hot & steamy bath by lit warm vanilla sugar candles, gave myself a mini mani/pedi with a shade of vampy purple (which wasn't very summery of me, but i was feelin' it at the moment) and i let the freshness of a grapefruit face masque soak up my pores & get my skin some energy. i kicked my feet up in the tub & laughed when i kicked over two empty bottles of baby wash, still there cause my baby likes to play with them. oh, the little things. my scalp tingled when i actually took the time to let my redken & bedhead shampoo & conditioner soak up my hair as i massaged the soapy-ness all over my head. i let my natural curls go wild while i slabbed on a coat of mascara and lipstick, applied some bronzer on my cheeks..squeezed in some skinny jeans & a tube top..and i felt like a new woman :)
in other news: my baby is changing every day. i promise, next time i'm off work, i'm going to dedicate one full day of photos of my little angels expressions, that way i won't forget a one. this morning she discovered a button on one of her toys that belts out peek-a-boo, i see you! and i swear, she must of hit that button 50 times, turning around with each time, smiling her hugest of all smiles at me, and i laughed along right with her, because its just so funny. she claps her hands now, and usually does it at meal time..which makes me giggle. she's about this close to walking & holding hands and walking side by side is her (and my) new favorite thing to do. oh, and she pushes us away now when we annoy her, along with anything else she doesn't want. tonight she was finished with her apple juice, and threw it across the room. as obnoxious as it is, it makes me laugh. (i actually captured her pushing my face away in one of the pics below, tehe) and lastly, evening naps are her now worst enemy. it's been a fight every night this week for her to take her 5pm cat nap. she'll lay down for about 30 minutes & have a ba..then she'll poop and cry for us to come change her diaper. every.single.time after i lay her down in the evening. i swear she's holdin' out on us. we go back & forth between the crib and swing, and 9 times out of 10..she wins. i scoop her out and we come back out to play and love some more, and she rubs her sleepy eyes and yawns 100 times until bedtime, but hey..at least she's happy.
today i found her like this: half sideways, blankets all kicked off, and all smiles when she saw her mama to come in to get her.
in other news: my baby is changing every day. i promise, next time i'm off work, i'm going to dedicate one full day of photos of my little angels expressions, that way i won't forget a one. this morning she discovered a button on one of her toys that belts out peek-a-boo, i see you! and i swear, she must of hit that button 50 times, turning around with each time, smiling her hugest of all smiles at me, and i laughed along right with her, because its just so funny. she claps her hands now, and usually does it at meal time..which makes me giggle. she's about this close to walking & holding hands and walking side by side is her (and my) new favorite thing to do. oh, and she pushes us away now when we annoy her, along with anything else she doesn't want. tonight she was finished with her apple juice, and threw it across the room. as obnoxious as it is, it makes me laugh. (i actually captured her pushing my face away in one of the pics below, tehe) and lastly, evening naps are her now worst enemy. it's been a fight every night this week for her to take her 5pm cat nap. she'll lay down for about 30 minutes & have a ba..then she'll poop and cry for us to come change her diaper. every.single.time after i lay her down in the evening. i swear she's holdin' out on us. we go back & forth between the crib and swing, and 9 times out of 10..she wins. i scoop her out and we come back out to play and love some more, and she rubs her sleepy eyes and yawns 100 times until bedtime, but hey..at least she's happy.
today i found her like this: half sideways, blankets all kicked off, and all smiles when she saw her mama to come in to get her.
it was about 20 minutes of peeking in on this:
so i couldn't bare it any longer. i scooped her up into kisses & we laughed & we played and she was tired..but like i said, she was happy.
later on we headed up to a softball field with Jake and Chance, one in which i never knew existed until today..and oh, was it the best. it's where their season of fall ball will be held and i'm so excited because 1. it's right down the street! 2. it has a cute park for Abby to play on and 3. the best of all..its on a horse & cow farm! die. i'm such a farm animal fanatic i seriously squealed like a little girl when we walked up to say hi. i want to live on a farm someday. and ride horses & feed cute little baby piglets & milk mama cows and feed the chickens. ok..the chickens would be kind of boring but the rest would be fun ;)
and i love us. it's random, but the three of us..jake, abby, and i..we're so perfect for each other and i'm so incredibly lucky to have both of them. i was reminded how amazing we all are tonight at the field..while we were packing up the car, abby was on Jake's hip and i accidentally set off her singing piggy toy, and i held it up in the air & and sung along with it i have two eyes, and i have two feet, purple orange green & blue, with a pink nose & a curly tail..i love to sing and dance with you!, and jake danced with abby on his hip..and she laughed her hardest belly laugh yet. she either knew how silly we looked, or she just seriously thinks we're so much fun & just simply hilarious :)
& while i really can't wait for the new season that awaits us, along with pumpkin pies, halloween costumes, and haunted hayrides..i will miss these days. days of summer sun where we play at parks & i casually drive in the glowy sunset with the windows down..its crazy how quickly summer comes to an end. it's already august and in just one short month it will be fall time. school buses will start taking over the neighborhoods during early morning, frost will put an icey little later over my windshield, and coming into a warm home instead of a chilly one will be oh so refreshing. and that's what i love about living on the east coast. we get to enjoy it all. summer, winter, fall, and spring. and oh how i love all four :)
oh, and this new song? it's my obsession. hope you like it as much as i do :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
follow up
the laziness continued through out the day. only about a quarter of the laundry got done, and my hair never left its scrunchy & i never squeezed into something nicer than yoga pants & tshirts.
what can i say? it seems like the more i post, the more i realize how often i feel this way. will i never know the days of waking up early, full of energy, ready to explore the world again? i think that i will. all in good time. but for now..i can rock those yoga pants & i can rock no makeup and stained tshirts. one day abby won't need me to wake up early with her, she won't need me every second of every day..and i'll have all the time in the world to catch up on my beauty sleep..but, when that day comes..i will be so indescribably sad. so for now, i'm lazy. we enjoy our days lounging, walking to the park, and browsing the malls...all with mama lookin like a homeless woman. but i can rock it ;)
we took our first bubble bath tonight together. i don't know why it never crossed my mind before..but i snatched her lavender baby bubble bath & wash out of the cabinet and we sudsed up. we laughed when we stacked the bubbles on top of each others heads, we blew the bubbles all over the bathroom..we had loads of fun & called for Dada to take pictures but the camera was dead :( we stayed in so long that the foamy big bath, turned into tiny little clear bubbles that scattered across the steamy bath water. it's so relaxing, just the two of us, music softly playing in the background, the hum of Jake's voice on the phone in the next room, and the belly laughs coming from my girl..it puts knots in my stomach. i seriously love my life.
we took a night time walk after dinner. i will miss these summer night walks when it becomes to chilly to enjoy them. we listened to crickets chirping and watched fire flies dance over the grass. jake broke sticks over tree trunks and abby kicked her bare feet up in the stroller & rubbed her sleepy eyes. oh how i will miss this.
both of my babies are in bed, and right now is one of my favorite times of the day. me time. i usually spend an hour or two with Jake after Abby is in bed cleaning, watching tv, eating ice cream, whatever it is we're doing..i love us time. it reminds me that were still a couple, and not just mommy and daddy. he's an early bird & heads to bed earlier than i..so once 11pm hits..it's just me, laptop, tv, and junk food. its probably not the healthiest habit since i'm always complaining about being sleepy..but good shows are on, my blogging addiction takes over, and jake went grocery shopping without me which means theres tons of unhealthy food that screams my name from the kitchen. hence the cookies & milk i'm comping on as we speak ;)
& tomorrow..i vow to take a shower. i vow to get out of the house by early afternoon and get out on the town. go to the pool, go visit some family, go to the park..do something fun & hopefully look half way decent doing so. we'll see how it goes ;)
what can i say? it seems like the more i post, the more i realize how often i feel this way. will i never know the days of waking up early, full of energy, ready to explore the world again? i think that i will. all in good time. but for now..i can rock those yoga pants & i can rock no makeup and stained tshirts. one day abby won't need me to wake up early with her, she won't need me every second of every day..and i'll have all the time in the world to catch up on my beauty sleep..but, when that day comes..i will be so indescribably sad. so for now, i'm lazy. we enjoy our days lounging, walking to the park, and browsing the malls...all with mama lookin like a homeless woman. but i can rock it ;)
we took our first bubble bath tonight together. i don't know why it never crossed my mind before..but i snatched her lavender baby bubble bath & wash out of the cabinet and we sudsed up. we laughed when we stacked the bubbles on top of each others heads, we blew the bubbles all over the bathroom..we had loads of fun & called for Dada to take pictures but the camera was dead :( we stayed in so long that the foamy big bath, turned into tiny little clear bubbles that scattered across the steamy bath water. it's so relaxing, just the two of us, music softly playing in the background, the hum of Jake's voice on the phone in the next room, and the belly laughs coming from my girl..it puts knots in my stomach. i seriously love my life.
we took a night time walk after dinner. i will miss these summer night walks when it becomes to chilly to enjoy them. we listened to crickets chirping and watched fire flies dance over the grass. jake broke sticks over tree trunks and abby kicked her bare feet up in the stroller & rubbed her sleepy eyes. oh how i will miss this.
both of my babies are in bed, and right now is one of my favorite times of the day. me time. i usually spend an hour or two with Jake after Abby is in bed cleaning, watching tv, eating ice cream, whatever it is we're doing..i love us time. it reminds me that were still a couple, and not just mommy and daddy. he's an early bird & heads to bed earlier than i..so once 11pm hits..it's just me, laptop, tv, and junk food. its probably not the healthiest habit since i'm always complaining about being sleepy..but good shows are on, my blogging addiction takes over, and jake went grocery shopping without me which means theres tons of unhealthy food that screams my name from the kitchen. hence the cookies & milk i'm comping on as we speak ;)
& tomorrow..i vow to take a shower. i vow to get out of the house by early afternoon and get out on the town. go to the pool, go visit some family, go to the park..do something fun & hopefully look half way decent doing so. we'll see how it goes ;)
Writers Block
Today I feel as though I have nothing to talk about. Which is odd, because I always have things on my mind. Today? I'm totally blank.
Yesterday morning I get into my very first fender-bender on campus at work. Smashed right into the car in front of me at the stop sign. Roads were wet, I wasn't paying attention..whatever. Cars were fine, we were fine..so we shook hands and called it a day. Phew
Last night Jackie and I took a light jog around the neighborhood after Abby was in bed..and it was, well..intersting..to say the least. The very least.
So far today I've fed Abby breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, vacuumed the living room, put Abby down for a nap, and now there's a pile of clothes sky high in my hallway begging for me to wash them. but I don't feel like it. It's 1pm, I'm wearing my daily attire (yoga pants & a tank) dr. 90210 is on the Style channel and there's a bowl of Lucky Charms in my lap...and it's heaven. It's quiet and the sun is peeking its way through the half-closed blinds as I sit here with my sleepy eyes and feeling completely relaxed. I probably only have a short hour until Abby is awake and its back to changing diapers and the laundry in the hall will pretty much be screaming my name by then, so until then...a couch potato I am ;)
Yesterday morning I get into my very first fender-bender on campus at work. Smashed right into the car in front of me at the stop sign. Roads were wet, I wasn't paying attention..whatever. Cars were fine, we were fine..so we shook hands and called it a day. Phew
Last night Jackie and I took a light jog around the neighborhood after Abby was in bed..and it was, well..intersting..to say the least. The very least.
So far today I've fed Abby breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, vacuumed the living room, put Abby down for a nap, and now there's a pile of clothes sky high in my hallway begging for me to wash them. but I don't feel like it. It's 1pm, I'm wearing my daily attire (yoga pants & a tank) dr. 90210 is on the Style channel and there's a bowl of Lucky Charms in my lap...and it's heaven. It's quiet and the sun is peeking its way through the half-closed blinds as I sit here with my sleepy eyes and feeling completely relaxed. I probably only have a short hour until Abby is awake and its back to changing diapers and the laundry in the hall will pretty much be screaming my name by then, so until then...a couch potato I am ;)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Sunday
Due to the legnthly-ness of the last post I decided to start fresh for today's story.
We found Abby's baptism dress! A whopping $60 it was (no idea they were so expensive) but my Grandma and I just couldn't resist when we saw my little one struttin' her stuff in the JCPenny's infant department. We lost it, laughed at squealed at how adorable she looked and had to get it. First dress we tried on and it was a winner. Can't wait to post pictures of her in it next Sunday :)
It was so special to get to spend the day with my grandmother today. She's my mom's stepmom (but obviously still just as much my grandmother as the blood related) and I never get to see her, let alone it being just the two of us. We caught up and had lunch at the local diner..while Abby made a mess of her spaghetti and her and I munched on nachos and blt sandwiches.
I came home, made some brownies, bathed Abby for bedtime and watched Shark Week on the discovery channel with Jake...and that's pretty much it for today.
That's okay that today was so mellow. It's so very rare that we just get to chill, Abby, Jake and I. & With a stroll around the mall and lunch with Grandma, home made brownies & a sudsy warm baby bath & new shows to watch..it makes for a perfect Sunday, just chillin with the family. I really couldn't ask for anything more.
Back to work tomorrow, the last shift and then I'm finally off for two days instead of just one. (read my previous post, it explains)
With that said, it's already 1am and the sleep deprivation cycle will continue through tomorrow night, and Wednesday morning.
Thursday things should finally be getting back to normal.
We found Abby's baptism dress! A whopping $60 it was (no idea they were so expensive) but my Grandma and I just couldn't resist when we saw my little one struttin' her stuff in the JCPenny's infant department. We lost it, laughed at squealed at how adorable she looked and had to get it. First dress we tried on and it was a winner. Can't wait to post pictures of her in it next Sunday :)
It was so special to get to spend the day with my grandmother today. She's my mom's stepmom (but obviously still just as much my grandmother as the blood related) and I never get to see her, let alone it being just the two of us. We caught up and had lunch at the local diner..while Abby made a mess of her spaghetti and her and I munched on nachos and blt sandwiches.
I came home, made some brownies, bathed Abby for bedtime and watched Shark Week on the discovery channel with Jake...and that's pretty much it for today.
That's okay that today was so mellow. It's so very rare that we just get to chill, Abby, Jake and I. & With a stroll around the mall and lunch with Grandma, home made brownies & a sudsy warm baby bath & new shows to watch..it makes for a perfect Sunday, just chillin with the family. I really couldn't ask for anything more.
Back to work tomorrow, the last shift and then I'm finally off for two days instead of just one. (read my previous post, it explains)
With that said, it's already 1am and the sleep deprivation cycle will continue through tomorrow night, and Wednesday morning.
Thursday things should finally be getting back to normal.
Jason Aldean
No one was joking when they said you'll be tired for the whole first year of your little one's life. I read through my posts & there so many blogs about how tired I am! I'm not complaining, because all the sleepless nights and early mornings are so worth. But today is another one of those days where I'm super sleepy.
Work has made my schedule really weird this week. I work 3, 12 hour shifts a week..and usually I try to knock all three out in a row so that way I have the next 4days home with Abby. For some strange reason, they switched things up & have me working every other day. I worked Tuesday, off Wednesday, worked Thursday, off Friday, worked Saturday, off today..and back tomorrow. I hate it! Working 12 hours totally drains me & my first day off after a shift I usually spend lounging & joining Abby for every nap..but then my next day off I'm rejuvenated & ready to rock. I haven't had that extra day to recuperate this week and I'm definitely feeling it!
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Friday: Jason Aldean Concert
I was reluctant about going to the show, as I talked about in my last post. Thank you, thank you heart of mine, who was being tugged from both directions..thank you for making me go.I'm so glad I went.
I didn't realize how much I needed a night out with my three best girls. Sure, Jake and I have went out with friends a time or two since Abby's been born..but just us girls? It's been so long.
Work has made my schedule really weird this week. I work 3, 12 hour shifts a week..and usually I try to knock all three out in a row so that way I have the next 4days home with Abby. For some strange reason, they switched things up & have me working every other day. I worked Tuesday, off Wednesday, worked Thursday, off Friday, worked Saturday, off today..and back tomorrow. I hate it! Working 12 hours totally drains me & my first day off after a shift I usually spend lounging & joining Abby for every nap..but then my next day off I'm rejuvenated & ready to rock. I haven't had that extra day to recuperate this week and I'm definitely feeling it!
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Friday: Jason Aldean Concert
I was reluctant about going to the show, as I talked about in my last post. Thank you, thank you heart of mine, who was being tugged from both directions..thank you for making me go.I'm so glad I went.
I didn't realize how much I needed a night out with my three best girls. Sure, Jake and I have went out with friends a time or two since Abby's been born..but just us girls? It's been so long.
We started out tailgating in the lot with a bunch of other country girls & country boys. I was a party pooper and had 4 jello shots and a few sips of parrot bay and grapefruit juice..and felt nauseous and had to go sit in the car with the AC and a bag of chips (lol! typical mother) and during that time I got to talk to my sweet man who played mommy for the night and was giving Abby her bedtime bath as we spoke.
The next 2 hours were spent running into the woods 3 times for pee breaks, along with a million other tipsy Jason fans. There was country music blastin' from all directions, cowboy boots & cowboy hats from every truck bed, tons of laughing and reminiscing about old times, singing, and just an awesome time and indescribable fun.
Once the show was getting started it felt like hours before the actual "concert" started. We still had fun, sittin on the lawn & sippin ice cold bud light lime bottles. Even more laughs than before at Whitney who slipped on a piece of paper and dropped her whole beer on a woman who we literally thought was going to murder her..a situation I can seriously still laugh extremely hard at. Even funnier we had to sit right behind her & look at her soaking wet shirt and pissed off face for the next hour. Sorry lady, it was hilarious.
After an hour or two of budlight limes, chicken tenders and sneaking into the men's bathroom because the women's line was far too long..Jason Aldean's opener, David Nail took stage. He's still new, so not many of us knew a lot of his songs..but once he played his biggest hit "Red Light"..the whole crowd went crazy. We sang right along with every word as he announced I have goosebumps all over Maryland
Then, it happened. Jackie and I took our pavilion seats & the man I have been madly in love with for 4 years stood right in front of me.
I don't think I've ever screamed so loud in my life. We didn't even take the time to take any pictures besides this one on her cell :)
We stood on our chairs and sang along, threw our hands in the air & danced like no one was watching as he rocked out "Johnny Cash" and "She's Country"..then I almost melted to the ground when he started strumming the tune of "Why" on his guitar..I was so excited, people turned around to see who was making all the noise. It's seriously probably in my top 5 favorite songs of all time. I rocked out. I rocked out hard baby.
At intermission we headed back to the lawn with our friends. Honestly, that was much more fun. All four of us sang at the top of our lungs, danced together..Whitney danced with a drunk woman behind us, Christina and I sernated each other during numerous songs, Jackie and I shook our booties and clapped our hands like we were in the club..it was a blast. Seriously, the most fun I've had in such a long time.
We all went crazy once Jason left the stage..and then came back for an encore with "Big Green Tractor" every one's favorite. We hung our arms around each other and swung back and forth, and swore that we'd never go to another concert ever again without any of each other. We have officially started a tradition.
Once we were all heading out they played Bob Marley & my crazy friend hula danced with unknown by passers and kept the show rolling. We ran into Jackie's ex boyfriend (also one of Jake's best friends) who was obviously way too drunk to drive and some how Jackie and I ended up with him in our backseat.
The three of us got so lost. It was an adventure, but it was fun..as frustrating as it was.
I made it home around 2am, snuck into Abby's room and scooped her up for a late night snuggle and then crawled into bed with my man and honestly thought i love my life. I'm so lucky to have such a kind and understanding boyfriend who lets me have the best of both worlds every once in a while, a little girl who is 100x better than any concert who I'm just blessed enough to spend every day with, and seriously the best friends in the world. The four of us have been best friends since we all met in 7th grade when we were 12, and I truly believe..that we always will be ♥
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